i'm back :) this time... well, everything's gone to shit again.
everytime i think i'm falling for you, you go and do stuff like last night. i feel like a fucking ping pong ball. look, if you're going to be such a douche all the time, then tell me now, so i can stop wasting my time.
i have a plan. it's gonna be hard to execute. and it might hurt a couple of people. well, fuck that. i doubt it will actually. i think i've fooled myself into thinking that they actually care. and me cutting them out of my life will hurt them. it'll probs just make them happier. because i'm that much of a total fucking failure. i fuck everything up. maybe EVERYONE would be better off, without me. i just bring everyone down. all the fucking time.
maybe, i'll just back off. curl up in a corner. leave everyone alone.
:'/ i can't even bring myself to care anymore. is that bad? xx